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it would make a post which is about nothing really seem much more meaningful.

I’ve been watching movies and playing a lot of guitar the past couple of weeks since schoolwork went into a bit of a lull. just watched Brokeback Mountain earlier (a little awkward… but great film).

been planning for the upcoming trip around Ireland and the UK with my mother and aunts as well. really looking forward to it though I will be glad once the (occasional bouts of) paranoia over minute details is gone.

one of those doubting, lethargic moods is coming on again. probably the closest thing to having a period I get.

I dunno why but not knowing what I want from life feels like a sin.

louder, louder, and we’ll run for our lives

just caught Snow Patrol in concert at the O2. very enjoyable. it was a bit sian at first because I was in the seated area (was too late to buy a standing ticket) and it felt very… inhibited. since I was on my own I of course did not dare to stand up and start waving around madly and thus make a fool out of myself. luckily Gary Lightbody got everyone to stand up halfway through and from then on it got better. although the guy beside me was still sitting down and doing sudoku on his phone while his girlfriend was jumping crazily away.

I like live concerts. when the bass is so low it trembles through your body and you can feel your heart beating and you hear  the music and sing along and you see the lights and the screaming people and you just feel so… alive.

 

whine alert

today is the first time in more than one and a half years of university that I deliberately skipped a seminar.

I hate feeling sick. that’s when it really feels like the world is closing in on you.

I want to forget about school, get out of this bloody cold and sit by the beach.